When I think about the weeks
Leading up to the hospital
How I stole your roommate’s rings
Left you waiting on the island
And all those cryptic notes I wrote
on your facebook wall I feel
Sick

Boy did they write the book on me
Thoughts of grandiosity
Talking fast, moving quick
Honestly I was so relieved
Just to be happy

Chemicals can take the blame
Still I can’t help but feel the shame
Wondering what could’ve been
If it had been normal
If I hadn’t gone crazy

And on your part to be fair
I was right across the street
And you only came to see me once in five week

But on your part to be fair
I know it caught you unaware
How were you supposed to know how to help me?

The thing about the hospital was that
I was hoping I wouldn’t need it
The thing about the hospital was that
I was hoping I’d be fine
I’d always been a little bit wild
I’d always been a little bit sad - yeah
The thing about the hospital was it ate up all my precious time

What a shock to find my brain
Back in the fog this summer
All consuming, suffocating the same old story

I could feel you pulling back
Shutting down - who could blame you?
So close to it, black hole spinning, a sinking ship
And I know you’ll stick it out
You’re here for good
You’re not bailing
Still I’m not blind: i could see it
How it scared you

So on my part now I swear
I will do everything I can
Not to ever get that low again
Cause I hate it

And on my part now I swear
I will do everything I can
Not to ever get that high again
Cause it broke me

See me now - I’m being so careful
See me not - I’m been so good
Still I’ve got my reservations
Just like any sane person would

And

The thing about the lithium is that
I was hoping I wouldn’t need it
The thing about the lithium is that
I was hoping I’d be fine
I’ve always been a little bit wild
I’ve always been a little bit sad - yeah
The thing about the lithium is
I guess I’ll miss my edges a tad